Do you ever get tired of waking up tired? Sounds like a silly question right? Well, about two months ago I decided that I was tired of waking up feeling like life was somehow too hard. I know in my head that, as a follower of Jesus, my life SHOULD look different, feel different, and make a difference, right?
But instead, I felt tired, distracted, and very broken. Where was the joy? The strength? The healing? I felt like I was missing something important, and that even though I might have had it once… I lost it, whatever IT was.
I struggled to pray, to read my Bible, or to serve othes in any capacity. In the brief moments I actually tried to pray, I had nothing to say. All I could muster up was someting along the lines of
“Lord, I need healing – I don’t know why I feel so defeated, like life is too hard and I’m too broken to do anything about it…I need to be healed.”
That single prayer carried me for what seemed like forever.
The question I was struggling with was this: if I need healing and God has promised me healing through His Word, and He is more than capable of healing me, why is it that I’m still tired? Still distracted? And still broken? Why hadn’t God healed me yet?
God had the answer (of course) but to get there, He took me on a little journey.